How Ben Awad grew to become TikTok’s unlikely heartthrob


I don’t keep in mind the primary time I noticed a video of Ben Awad, 24-year-old bespectacled software program engineer, on TikTok. All I keep in mind is pulling up the feedback and nearly choking on my espresso. “I’m leaking all around the flooring Ben,” is however one instance of the lewd feedback left by a whole lot of customers, whose responses to Ben’s movies vary from the goofily longing (“I’d actually morph right into a keyboard for you ben”) to the completely feral (“Ben it’s been 48 hours since my wax. Im allowed friction now ben;” “Ben please only a fast guzzle of your brogurt.”)

What shocked me about these feedback was not their content material, precisely — desirous to, say, get run over with a truck by a star crush is a longtime pillar of the stan web — however fairly the thing of their affection. Awad is definitely cute, in the best way the kind of nerdy child in your math lecture is cute, however he doesn’t preen and pout in entrance of the digital camera the best way so many others do on-line, individuals who clearly know that the crux of their content material is “Have a look at me, I’m scorching.”

He’s been making fashionable coding tutorials on YouTube since he was 19 and solely significantly began making TikToks final 12 months as a part of a stunt to see if he may go viral by hacking into the algorithm (it labored, kinda!). Since then, he’s been explaining programming memes and stitching women’ movies whereas making dry, area of interest coding jokes that act as punchlines.

TikTok didn’t invent the idea of the thirst entice, however it has democratized it sufficient that even probably the most average-looking individuals, a lot of them males, have gotten recipients of mass, pulsating, and infrequently fairly gross need. There are various names for these types of movies — “Boyfriend POVs,” “ThirstTok,” “Performing POVs,” whereby individuals do no matter facial features or hand second is stylish on the time (presently it’s “smiling whereas speaking”) to a well-liked audio. It’s a time-honored custom pioneered earlier than TikTok was TikTok, again when it was, the place teenagers shared movies of dizzying transitions and staccato motions. There, the winners of the algorithm have been principally clean-cut preteen girls and boys who conformed to mid-2010s magnificence requirements. On TikTok in 2021, it’s rather more diversified.

Positive, there are the anticipated genres of hunks baldly catering to the feminine gaze: There’s one completely jacked and tatted-up man who chops wooden on digital camera; there’s a 21-year-old with a mullet who lip-syncs to ’80s hits, a lot to the delight of his largely Gen X feminine followers; there are a lot of who prepare dinner actually, actually handsome meals whereas additionally being scorching. Essentially the most well-known examples are those that find yourself in cringe compilations and mocking duets — Devin Caherly, who pretends as if, say, he’s your husband seeing you for the primary time in your wedding ceremony day and falls to tears, has been a longtime goal, as have the e-boys whose makes an attempt at coolness so typically land as creepy.

March of 2021 was when the thirst feedback began coming in on Awad’s web page. “I used to be very a lot used to imply individuals on the web, and it doesn’t hassle me,” he says. “However I’m not used to all these feedback in anyway.” They started comparatively chaste: “hello im actually in love with u,” “r u free Feb 14?”. Inside only a day, although, they leveled up: “im down unhealthy omg,” “hiya i’m a CS main who may use your tip”, “my ring finger trying rlly empty rn,” “he actually may do no matter he desires with me.” Now, in fact, they’re past parody (“I’m only a gap ben;” “clawing on the partitions and frothing profusely”), and have principally was a contest to see who can write probably the most stunning commentary. He has obtained so many DMs that he has stopped studying them utterly, and says that if he’s in New York Metropolis or any scenario with plenty of college-aged college students, there’s a 50 p.c likelihood he’ll get acknowledged.

Awad has his theories as to the rationale for all this, er, fervor. “I feel it’s a few issues: One is that my content material is the alternative of feral, I’m very stoic. I’m not determined for one of these consideration, so it’s a yin and yang.” The dissonance between a video shared to elicit a selected response versus the precise response it will get is a tentpole of TikTok comedy: “You’ll be able to suppose you need to lead individuals a sure means, however plenty of occasions, the [commenters] shall be like, ‘I observed that small element within the nook of your video, and that’s what we’re speaking about,’” he explains.

I’ve a pal, who we’ll name Katie, who’s extraordinarily energetic on alternative-thirst entice TikTok and can also be an enormous fan of Awad’s. She’s conflicted, although, on how she ought to really feel about it. “I hate that my silly little hormones and silly little coronary heart do a silly little flip once I see a scorching man on TikTok,” she says. “I open up the feedback to those women or guys going completely feral for this individual and rapidly it feels foolish to throw my remark into the pile. Like, what do I feel will occur, they’ll discover me?”

There’s additionally the query of consent, and whether or not it’s moral to publicly thirst after somebody who could or might not be asking for it. “If we noticed these sorts of feedback from males on a woman’s video, the response can be much more adverse,” says Katie. “However as a result of now males are receiving only a fraction of the thirst feedback we obtain for simply present on-line, does that make it okay? I don’t know.”

Awad hasn’t had anybody cross the road, per se, however he does really feel bizarre about sure sorts of feedback. “Those that go somewhat bit too far is once they get possessive or protecting, like, ‘Are you speaking to a different lady?’”

The principles of thirst entice TikTok are completely different from that of Instagram or Twitter, and so they definitely apply in a different way to individuals throughout the gender spectrum. As the favored TikToker Brittany Tomlinson put it to me final 12 months, “There’s this hyperfixation on being a cute little child. Like, why? I don’t get it. It’s like, ma’am, you have got taxes to pay.” These conventions are rather more fraught for ladies, who’re inspired to look as younger as potential till it turns into creepy.

In the meantime, males are touted as heroic heartthrobs for being what some would argue is the privilege of being average-looking and placing little effort into their movies. “There’s part of me that’s nearly offended that it’s really easy for these males to get this type of consideration by actually simply posting a video of them sitting at a desk and smiling on the digital camera,” provides Katie. “In the event that they know they’re scorching, I don’t need to gasoline their ego additional!”

Awad’s commenters, as an illustration, like to debate whether or not he’s in on the joke, whether or not he is aware of precisely what he’s doing. “I’m not unaware of it,” he tells me, including that he prefers to be coy when responding to the 2 hottest questions his followers ask: his peak and relationship standing (to the followers: I attempted, however he declined to reply both, my sincerest apologies). Being a TikTok hunk, he says, has made relationship each simpler and extra difficult: Whereas he has a a lot greater pool to attract from, it takes a selected form of individual to be okay with the content material he makes.

He has but to expertise, nonetheless, the form of world-shattering consideration that has haunted unintentional hunks of the previous: In 2014, when a 16-year-old boy grew to become “Alex from Goal” after somebody snuck a photograph of him whereas he was working as a cashier, he and his household have been topic to defamatory lies, rumors, and loss of life threats, and he’s not publicly on-line. Nor has Awad been provided any modeling roles, in contrast to Jeremy “Jail Bae” Meeks, whose good-looking mugshot went viral the identical 12 months.

What Awad and others with comparable fanbases on TikTok — @bradleywebber20, @steezynoodles, @thecodyfromtotaldrama, @archiedonohoe — are experiencing are the consequences of going viral in a comparatively area of interest nook of the web; maybe not as viral as equally nerdy-cute information anchor Steve Kornacki through the 2020 election, however perhaps extra attainable than, say, the Planet Cash TikTok man, who kind of seems like Awad however doesn’t acknowledge his league of thirsty followers.

It’s a typical topic on TikTok to debate whether or not somebody is “designed for the feminine gaze,” or to make use of frequent parlance, “lady scorching,” which is to say not essentially the portrait of ultra-aggressive masculinity that many males view because the male magnificence commonplace. TikTok hunks belong in Lisa Simpson’s Non-Threatening Boys journal, however much more attainable than somebody like, say, a Timothée Chalamet or a Harry Types, and due to this fact extra rewarding to thirst after.

An instance: Awad, who presently has greater than 650,000 followers, expects he’ll attain one million someday in January or February. As a present to his followers, as soon as he hits the mark, he promised to make a video in a maid outfit. Timothée Chalamet may by no means.

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